Okay, so it took a long while to get back here. Since my leaving for boot camp 4 months ago (wow!), I’ve come back. I don’t feel any different, I didn’t feel any different when I commissioned back in April, I didn’t feel any different Jul 31 as I tossed my flight cap up in the air to mark my “graduation” from COT. It’s not really a big deal, there’s not much to talk about it. I took a lot of pictures from COT, and I met a lot of cool people. I admired my flight commander a good amount. He was a man of integrity, and as my flight rallied through the weeks we spent at COT, we found ourselves pushing ourselves to make him proud, or at least I found myself doing that. They call it indoctrination, but as skeptical or reserved as I was prior to my experience with the men and women that serve the country, I found myself buying in and honestly and wholeheartedly believing that I had made the right decision. I do not know where this path will take me, and as uneasy as that made me feel prior to my commissioning or commitment, I feel that I would have it no other way right now. I’m comfortable with the fact that I don’t know where I’ll end up, and I like it that way for now. It’s exciting knowing that I could be anywhere around the world for an undetermined amount of time, doing something that matters (at least to me.) It’s exciting knowing that I could be doing ANYTHING around the world depending on the demands of the modern day military. I really don’t know what type of specialty I’d like to go into, and I think it is because of that that makes it easier for me to be comfortable with the military.
I’m randomly listening to a song my friend Angela (Kim) sent me like a year ago. I’ve been in an emo mood (as in, listening to emo music, Elliott Smith for example. Not necessarily feeling emo,) and I don’t know, I guess I just found this song catchy, and as a creature of habit with an addictive personality, this song’s been playing on repeat for the day. Hopefully this phase passes and I latch onto something more cheerful in a couple days.
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